Libby's Randomness!

So, I should start this blog off, and say, I'm still moving. My friend Cheyenne B. is driving up from SC to get me. She's leaving at 6:30am on August 28 to get me. She should be here no later than 8pm that night. We're going to load up my stuff, and head out after it's all loaded. On our drive back, when she gets too tired to drive, we'll stop in a hotel and sleep for a few hours. Then on the 29th we're going to finish our drive to my mom's in SC. Then on the 30th, my friends are having a welcome back party for me! :) That makes me feel loved! I love and miss all my friends so much! So I'm really happy to see them.

On another note, I'm still totally into One Direction, and about a month and a half ago I got into Ed Sheeran (Who wrote Moments for the 1D album) 1D and Ed are pretty much all I listen to, along with some BTR (Big Time Rush) and The Jonas Brothers. I have a blog on tumblr pretty much dedicated to 1D...If you wanna check it out, go to libby-loves-one-direction.tumblr.com :) I also do some random rants about life and people who claim that they love 1D...Those people are called Directionators.

Anyways, I think that's all I'm gonna post right now. I'll talk to you all later!

Libby Oh, someone made this for me...Totally made my day yesterday! :)

I was planning on staying in Indiana for a lot longer than this...But it looks like God has another plan for me. Sometime in August (On a Saturday) a friend of mine, Thomas E., is taking me back to South Carolina. His girlfriend is going to, hopefully, come with us so that he doesn't have to drive alone on the way back to Indiana. When my mom told me that my big brother said that I was going to move back to SC, I had told her, "That's news to me..." I didn't know that they wanted me out that badly...Kind of hurts, ya know?

I think I'm going to miss my niece and nephews more than anything...Ever since February of last year, I've become so close with them...Especially my little Shawners...I love that boy with all my heart! Sometimes he feels like he's my son, because he and I are so close. It's going to be hard not to see these three brats every day...That's for sure!

Am I going to miss Indiana? Hell yeah I am! (Sorry!) Like I've said before in my blogs, Indiana is and always will be my home, it's where I was born and raised. Am I going to be happy to be back in South Carolina? A little bit...I'll get to see my friends from there again, so that's a good thing. I just hate that I have to rely on someone like Thomas to take me there...Don't get me wrong, I'm super great-full that he said he'd take me...He's like a brother to me :)

Well, I guess that's all I'm going to write for now...I'll post more later on...Not sure when though...Might actually go to bed early tonight, shock!

Today would be my dad's 51st birthday...I miss him so much it's crazy! Part, if not most of me, wishes he was still here and healthy, so I could talk to him and tell him I love him...But the other part of me knows that he's happy where he's at, he's not in anymore pain, and he knows that I love him. Despite all the fighting between him and I as I was growing up, not a day passes that I don't want to thank him for helping my mom raise me into the person I am today.

When I was in school, he pushed me to finish my work and turn it it, though I rarely did. I hated school, I said that then, but now I wish I were able to go back. When I wasn't able to graduate in 2007 for being 1 credit short, stupid I know, I went back the following school year to try again. When I had 6 months left to graduate in 2008, my parents told me that we were moving to SC because my dad got a job offer down there. I hated him for that...Why couldn't he have gotten a job here in IN? I would ask and ask why and he said it paid better down there. So, reluctantly, I moved down south. When we got there, again he pushed me to graduate, I would have still graduated in 2008 had the school I went to here and the school I went to in SC hadn't been so different with the credits. I went back, yet again, my third time being a senior in high school. You wouldn't believe how hard my dad pushed me this time. My little brother was set to graduate in 2009 and so my dad wanted me to graduate then as well. I had a few days left of my senior year, and almost didn't pass. My dad told me that I had to do a very important project for my Astronomy class or I wouldn't graduate. I didn't want to let him down again, so I buckled down and got my project done. Like I said, I only had a few more days left, I think literally 2 days. I finished my project and presented it in front of a class, not mine as most of my class was seniors and they were all gone. I finished, waited for the teacher to grade it and then he told me I had passed that class. When I told my dad that I had passed the class and that I could go home, he was happy. He came and got me from school and we went home. A few days later, I walked and got my diploma, right before my little brother. Even though he and I graduated in 2009, I still pride myself that I got to get my diploma before him. I know it's not that big of a deal, but it felt like a great accomplishment in my life. And my daddy was proud of his little "angle" (I didn't know how to correctly spell angel when I was little, I never lived it down!)

When I was told that my dad was in the hospital last year, it broke me. I didn't know what to do. He was never sick enough to be in the hospital. No one would tell me what was wrong for a few days. They knew I'd have a bad reaction to the news, I've always been that way since February 14, 2006, when my grandmother, my dad's mom, passed away and I was the first to hear the news. When they finally told me what was going on with my dad, I cried and cried. My niece and nephews did their best to try to cheer me up. When my mom told my big brother that it wasn't looking good and that we should get down there ASAP we loaded up 2 of the 4 kids, and ourselves, me, my brother and his wife, and headed for SC. 14 long hours later we arrived at the house. We had left early enough in the morning that when we got to SC we were able to go visit dad in the hospital. My mom told my brothers to hold onto me when we went into the room, in fear that I'd end up on the floor in tears. I started crying seeing my daddy hooked up to all of those machines and everything that was keeping him alive. I honestly didn't break down as bad as my mom thought til she left the room to leave me and my two brothers alone with our dad. I didn't know how to act or what to do or say except "Please, God, don't take him, don't take my daddy! I need him!" I repeated that over and over again. I went up to his side and grabbed his hand and started talking to him. I told him that I was sorry for all the hurtful things I said and did over the years and that I hoped he forgave me and that I loved him with all my heart. I begged him to come out of this and live for me. After all three of us kids had talked to him and made our peace, our mom came back in the room. She was followed by one of the nicest nurses I've ever met. That was when I learned that my dad was 94% brain dead and there was no chance that if he came out of this he'd be able to do anything for himself. There really was no chance for him to come out of the coma.

We had left back for IN the next day, after we saw him one more time and said our final goodbyes. A few days later, on July 10, 2011 we got a call saying that he was almost 100% brain dead and that our mom was going to take him off life support. That became the hardest day of my life. That day I lost the greatest father on this planet. He was taken off life support and he was able to live for a few minutes without it, but his life signs faded and he passed on. That was a year ago this coming Tuesday. I know I'm going to be a wreck that day at work.

I just wanted to share about the hardest few days of my life last year and where I'm at now. I've changed a great deal since I lost my dad. I know he's happy and looking down on me and the rest of the family. This has been the longest and hardest blog for me to write, but I needed to write it. I needed to let my emotions out and they sure came out as I was writing this. Seeing as how I cried the whole time.

I love you so much daddy! I will always be your Little Angle and Pookie! Miss you so much!

Libby

So, as I'm sure most of you are aware, there is One Direction mania everywhere! My friend, Ploy, from Thailand told me about 1D on February 1, 2012...I honestly regret not listening to her and going to listen to their song, What Makes You Beautiful. I finally saw the episode of iCarly called iGo One Direction, which the lads guest starred in. I heard them sing WMYB and fell instantly in love. After that, I wanted and needed to know more about the 4 lads from England and the one lad from Ireland. So I found them on Twitter (Which you can find me, @LibbyJoe23) I follow each lad individually (@Harry_Styles, @NiallOfficial, @Louis_Tomlinson, @real_liam_payne, and @zaynmalik) and then I follow the entire One Direction band as a whole (@onedirection). I went on youtube.com and found a bunch of their interviews and everything. The most memorable interviews were on the stairs for the X Factor...Those are my favorites because you get to know the lads and see what they're really like. I think Louis (Not pronounced Lewis!) I could be cousins...I told my mom that his last name is Tomlinson, spelled the same way as our family (on her side) and she said, "Well, you could be cousins, since the Tomlinson family came from over there." So Louis, if you ever read this, which I highly doubt, I'd love to meet you one day and see if we could figure out if we're cousins. Louis is the eldest, followed by Zayn, then Liam, Niall and Harry. Harry and Zayn have stated in interviews that they'd go for a girl who is older...Well, I'm 4 years older than Zayn, and 5 years older than Harry, so I think I should qualify! :P Just kidding, but how awesome would it be to date a lad from One Direction?




I bet you've noticed I've said the word lad a lot in this blog...Well, that's because I have a British commentary going on in my head 24/7. I sometimes even find myself speaking with a British accent...I just love how it sounds, I think if I ever went to the UK I'd fit in. I'm currently working on a fan fiction story about a girl (me) meeting the lads and one of them ends up falling for me...I tend to let my mind wonder when I write, so I enjoy re-reading what I've written. After I started writing it, I found and heard online in interviews that they enjoy reading fan fiction...So maybe one day if I ever get the chance to meet them and see them perform live, I'll hand them each a copy of the finished piece.

Ok, on to other things! <3

My brother wrote a movie script called The Destination. I'm a producer on the film. It's been fully shot, he just needs to re-shoot some scenes. It's being released on November 8, 2012, which is the year date that my 7 month old nephew, his son, passed away.




http://www.brownpapertickets.com/event/258460

Click on the link above. If you live in Indiana, please feel free to buy a ticket and maybe donate $3.00? :) If you don't live in Indiana, please feel free to donate $3.00.

I still work at Dollar General in Milford. Fun times...For some reason it seems like every time I work, my ex (whom I've cut all ties to!) comes in to buy things...Talk about frustrating...Especially when he knows I'm there....I'm currently single, and looking, (Hint, Harry Styles or any of the other single lads in 1D) I've been at DG for almost a year, it'll be a year on the 26th I believe. Wow...That's crazy! I never thought I'd be in a job for a year...Especially one that tends to drive me crazy! :P But hey, it's a paycheck so I can't really complain!

Well, I think that's it...That's all that's going on in my life right now...If you'd like to get in touch with me, find me on Twitter, @LibbyJoe23, or you can email me, broadway_girl18@yahoo.com

Thanks for putting up with me! :)

Libby <3



P.S.
Oh, I almost forgot! My mom might be moving back to Indiana if she gets disability, which that means, I'll be moving in with her, her sister, and my 2 young cousins. It'd be weird, but I'd get my own bedroom again, possibly my own bathroom! And I can hang all my One Direction posters (Along with Jonas Brothers and Twilight, and whatever other posters I have in my room at my mom's in SC right now) So I'm excited!

Catch ya later!

Sorry I haven't posted a new blog since last year! Well, here's what's happened since my last post...My nephew was born on March 12, 2011...My dad passed away on July 10, 2011...My nephew passed away on November 8, 2011, 7 months after he was born. On November 7, 2011 I started dating the most amazing guy ever! David! We were best friends in third grade til he moved away in fifth grade. We were together for the best four months of my life. Things, unfortunately, ended on March 13, 2012. I still love him with all that I am. He's so amazing, sweet, caring, funny, and talented. D.M.H. has my heart, and will forever hold it, I don't care what anyone says! We will remain friends, and who knows, we might end up dating again...I can hope for that.

I've been working at Dollar General since July 22, 2011. I make minimum wage and I'm lucky if I get 4 days a week. I want either a second job or a better paying one. I need to get my own apartment.

My nephew Shawn now walks, talks and runs around the house. When I got here last February he was able to say a few words, and walk while holding on to someone's fingers. He's 3 years old now. He's such a cutie pie! I love him so much!
My niece Bekah is now 5 years old. She's lost her first tooth and is in the process of losing her second tooth. She's such a little munchkin. She loves musicals and sports. She wants to be a cheerleader for Notre Dame football.
My nephew Erik is 4. He's almost completely potty trained...He still has problems with going to the bathroom when he has to pee (sorry for the TMI). We're trying to work on that with him.

I think that's all I've got for now. Getting kinda hungry so I think I'm gonna go fix something to eat. I will try to post at least once a week.

Later!
Libzz

My mom called my brother's house to talk to me, and I told her about how I wanted to move back to Indiana, and she got mad at me. I'm at the point where I don't know what to say to her about me being an adult. I mean, I am 22 years old, and I need to eventually move out.

Empty chairs at empty tables...Nah, I'm not going to write the song down, but that is an amazing song! :) Probably one of my favorites that I've heard from Les Mis. But anyways, tomorrow is going to be the day that I'll have been here in Indiana for a week! I've been going to sleep every night around 12am, and waking up at 7:30 when my niece and nephews wake up...I'm seriously concidering moving back to Indiana for good...I could get a job where Aaron works and get like (I think he said to start out with) $130 a week...If I save enough of that I could get an apartment here in Milford and be able to pay my bills and whatnot. I could start a bank account and be able to buy my food, maybe get some foodstamps if I qualify that is. And still be close enough that I could watch my niece and nephews when I'm needed to. Hopefully I'll be able to get my license soon, so that I could get a car...Though I'd rather have a jeep or something...
Right now, I'm listening to Titanic The Musical, and I actually auditioned to be in the production (the one I'm listening to) but didn't get a part, which made me sad, but I was happy because my friends Stevie and Thomas got a part, so I went to see the show twice! :) I recorded the whole show onto my mp3 player, though it's just the sound, I still love listening to it! I can pick out who's who, mostly because I know the people who sing certain parts.
Well I don't really know what else to write, so I shall let yall go! Have a good day!
~Libby~

Since coming back to Indiana, it's like all the guys I liked before I moved to South Carolina, I'm finding myself liking them again...2 of them especially, I'm not putting names on here, just in case they might read this, but I can't help but smile when I think about them...I kinda wish something would happen, like we run into each other, or go on a date or something...I don't know what it is, but I'm just glad that I can be happy again after coming back to Indiana. I definately have to move back here if I want to be happy again, and I do, so I think I will move back. Maybe I'll come across my true love and live happily ever after. (To me, that's not all fairy tale stuff, it's possible to become a reality)
Well, I'm going to find something to eat and something to watch, so I'll post another blog later!
~Libby~

I'm back in Indiana! It only took about 2 hours on a plane, that's total with both planes I was on, and waiting in the Indianapolis Airport for my brother for 4 hours! The only reason I was at the airport for 4 hours was their van decided to break down a total of 3 times on their way to get me, so I was fighting sleeping at the airport, and sleep almost won! LOL! While I'm here, I'll be watching Bekah, Erik and Shawn, which I'm sure they won't mind because they've already made me want to take a nap today, a few hours after we all got out of bed. They're crazy but I love them! I played bowling on the xbox kinect the first time, and beat everyone! (: I will try to put pictures up here while I'm in Indiana, though right now, I'm thinking about moving back here for good...I think that would be the best thing for me right now. Well, I'm off to find some food, so I'll post more later!
~Libby~

I only have four more days til I head to Indiana! I'm so excited! I was talking to my sister in law earlier today and she said she told my nephew, Shawn, that I was coming to see him this weekend or something, and his exact words were "ibby!" LOL I love him! I can't wait to see him, Erik, and Bekah. I'm going to be surprising my bff Sarah sometime Friday evening! Her mom is going to get her around 4-5 and I'm going to have her let me know somehow when they're almost at their house and I'm going to be standing outside waiting for her. She'll definately be surprised by me just standing outside her place. ^^ Well, I shall post another blog maybe tomorrow, but I know I'll be posting one sometime Saturday night or Friday morning before I leave for Atlanta, GA. L8r Peoples!
~Libby~

I'll be leaving the state of South Carolina on February 25, 2011 to go back to my home state of Indiana to help my brother Aaron and his wife Erin with their kids, Bekah, Erik, and Shawn while they are at Riley's Children's Hospital for a while. I just hope that my mom and little brother, Sam, can get along without me here to help them. I'm 22 years old, and I hope to move back to Indiana soon to be on my own. I know I can do it, I just hope that if I do move back, my mom won't be upset. I'll try to add more to my blog as soon as I can, I'll probably add whenever I can get to a computer while in Indiana, which shouldn't be too hard since my brother has one and I can always go to the library.
Well, I guess that's all I have to put on here for now. Hope yall have a good day! God Bless!
~Libby~